Ranting

It is funny how you know the outcome of some things before they even start. Before planting an orange tree, you know that in the future you will have fresh orange juice. Before searching for a new job, you know that in the future you will be out having drinks with a friend or two.

In the past few weeks I have been taking in a lot in regards to time management. This relates to everything we do and do not do. Even though time is a man made idea, the cyclical pattern of night and day is a natural occurrence; man just has the innate need to explain everything, thus Time. The realization that, though we may have thousands of seconds, each one passes by so swiftly and unrecognized it is like we have none. We do not have control of the passing minutes in the day, but we do have control of ourselves and what we do in those allotted seconds.

Recently, I was in a discussion and the question was raised, "What would you do if you had $86,400 tomorrow?" It was an analogy relating to time, due to that being the number of seconds in a day. The only thing, I cannot spend those seconds like dollars. The value of each second, does not relate to money. The two are completely separate in terms of what type of "buying" power is present. I answered, "If I had $86,400, I would pay off my student loan, sack $10,000 into savings and invest the rest..." WE CANNOT SAVE TIME.

Ranting, my apologies. 

Culotte

A divided skirt. A divided heart. I'm left here questioning most of the things people tell me anymore. I won't let this bring me down. It's my life to live and I won't be knocked down by a decision I had no say in. I'm over the deception and manipulation. That is not me and will never be me.

Stepping stones

Progress. One semester closer to graduation. Four years closer to the ocean. And still I'm doing my own things, in my own ways. I've made it this far being a rebel. What's to say follow the rules now. I love the times that pass and the experiences. Everything has some kind of influence and it's great.
I now have speed, wisdom, heart, and experience to back my position. You may think I'm just another drifter but it is in a specific direction. I find myself wondering and daydreaming about the future and all it has in store. There is no way to know but we can all practice and plan for the best. Keep moving forward, that's all anyone can do.

Classroom intelectuals

Organizational situations explain distant internalization. Why do we split odd into our own realm? Internet resolve and expulsionary expertise concludes loose lies or truths with the lines that guide and the colors that please the eye interviewing oneself and entertaing the idea of living a prestigious life that one may not see as prestige, why? What is the process of explaining the livliness of distrested withdrawl from public relations. What is the resolve and what is the point? Why must I reduce down to a wine sauce made with butter and wine, why can't I be full of so many different spices that you can't determine the base.

Truth in heartache

10/12/09
A long time ago someone told me that when two people are in love, their souls become intertwined. Another time someone told me that when two people are in love there is no need for one to change anything about each other. Sometimes I think I have found love and then it turns out that I'm just not intertwined enough. The lost translations of love between lovers explains why some people leave each other. Other times it just would never have worked and you have no idea what the problems are, can't even explain the problems it is just unexpected and unexplained. I hate that one has to dig through a relationship and then get nothing from it. For it to just deteriorate and crash like I tree falling in the wind. I just need some kind of solid foundation because if I ever had one I would have known. I love to love and hate to hate but when love is faked it makes me hate whatever the reason. I can't take another bullshit lie or waste my time like that anymore. My life is my life in which a girl I love and am bound to love will show herself and intertwine right into my life like a missing piece of a story or puzzle.

11/13/14
I am glad that my outlook was so positive, and that I was unafraid to voice how my thoughts on love were once. These days I am not the same. I believe in the idea of love, it is beautiful. Sometimes I like to think about how wonderful it would be to find someone that just fits me perfectly, but usually that is not the case. I do realize that the possibilities are out there. The only the impossible thing is to go into space without any protective suit or breathing source and live for an extended period of time. I can honestly say that problems in relationships are always there and they have to be worked on, period. You can disregard the issues, and avoid the pain, but it will just lead to more pain and annoyance and deterioration of what we are talking about. So yes, the possibility is out there for someone to weave themselves into my life, or me into theirs, but the probability is low. I accept that, but realize the with every circumstance where it does not work in your favor, the odds increase in your favor. Statistical analysis of love. Unheard of, but I like it.